Self-Help and Changes

I am the queen of buying self-help books.  Always thinking that the particular book I am buying is going to be THE one with the solution to all my problems… only it never is.  So, on this go-around of starting over, (and you never know, this could be my last chance), I am going on my gut instinct.  I am already armed with all the clichés and therapeutic nuggets my brain can hold and frankly, I have worn myself out trying to “be all I can be” and “living up to my potential”.  I have recently been convinced that some people are just naturally happier than others and that maybe, just maybe “this is as good as it gets”.

I do know that for me, it is very important to have fulfilling work.  And if I am doing something I feel passionate about, it makes me happy and gives me a reason to get out of bed in the morning.  I have forever been wanting to start my own business and I think now is the time.  I do not have unrealistic expectations and I will continue to search for any type of work for supplemental income while I stumble through the tedious start-up process of launching a new business.

I don’t want to go through life on auto-pilot, going through the motions and having each day pass like the one before it.  I turned 46 about a week ago and realized that I have gone through another year without having really lived life.  I made a lot of changes but, perhaps they just weren’t the right ones.

Kim