Implementing More Changes

So, this is day four of my blog!  Yippee!  I wrote four days in a row, signed up for some online opportunities, submitted my first article to Associated Content, and did a bunch of preliminary work on starting my new business and this is all good.  There are two more things I would like to incorporate into the changes I want to make now that shouldn’t be too hard to do.  I need a morning ritual and I really need to start working out.  When I was doing so good a few months ago, I was an avid walker.  I walked daily and even got to the point where I could run, effortlessly and naturally.  I was wearing size 8 pants when I felt at my best.  I am sure that I can’t do my best work or be at my happiest unless I feel great too.  Feeling great is going to require a good diet and exercise.  I had been going to an aerobics class when I felt my best and it was fun (it’s very important that working out doesn’t suck).  And, just for myself, if I keep very active and busy, I don’t really have to worry too much about the diet.

I don’t think there is a right or wrong way to change yourself or implement the changes.  That is why I don’t really care for the “cookie-cutter” attitudes of a lot of the self-help books.  There is absolutely NO magic formula that can encompass the entire human experience.  So, I guess the biggest overall change I am making is that I am listening to myself and the people around me rather than the overwhelming amount of media written by people who don’t even know me.

Kim

Self-Help and Changes

I am the queen of buying self-help books.  Always thinking that the particular book I am buying is going to be THE one with the solution to all my problems… only it never is.  So, on this go-around of starting over, (and you never know, this could be my last chance), I am going on my gut instinct.  I am already armed with all the clichés and therapeutic nuggets my brain can hold and frankly, I have worn myself out trying to “be all I can be” and “living up to my potential”.  I have recently been convinced that some people are just naturally happier than others and that maybe, just maybe “this is as good as it gets”.

I do know that for me, it is very important to have fulfilling work.  And if I am doing something I feel passionate about, it makes me happy and gives me a reason to get out of bed in the morning.  I have forever been wanting to start my own business and I think now is the time.  I do not have unrealistic expectations and I will continue to search for any type of work for supplemental income while I stumble through the tedious start-up process of launching a new business.

I don’t want to go through life on auto-pilot, going through the motions and having each day pass like the one before it.  I turned 46 about a week ago and realized that I have gone through another year without having really lived life.  I made a lot of changes but, perhaps they just weren’t the right ones.

Kim

Time for Change

I have been very depressed lately and know that I need a change.  Today is the first day in months I even want to get out of bed in the morning and the reason is to write this, my second blog.  I know, lame, right?  I had just gotten on Facebook a couple months ago, reconnected with old friends, and became addicted to some games.  As my depression deepened, I was thinking that LESS internet might be the solution... but now, I'm thinking MORE internet!  I like it, it makes me happy, and one day, it may be the source of my income.

Nine months ago, I changed everything a person can possibly change about themselves and things seemed like they were going well.  I moved far away, got divorced, got a new job, lost a lot of weight, got a dog, quit smoking and drinking, and many other things.  I am still not quite sure what happened, but after a few months, I somehow ended up back in the same miserable state I was in before I made all the changes.

I am determined to and I must find the way to a better life.  I refuse to live this way anymore.  The first step I am taking is to express my desire for a better life to the universe through this blog.  I have hope and faith that the answers I am seeking will come.

Kim

My First Blog

I am here because I am trying to start my life all over again.  I am trying new things and am starting this Blog to document my journey.  This first entry is not going to be too long because I already spent over an hour just getting to this point (which demonstrates that anything can be done).  Thanks for reading and if I can find my way back (lol), you can look forward to some very interesting content.  My intention is to provide plenty of resources and inspiration to anyone who is not satisfied with their life and wants to make changes.